Test and two approaches.

During the fasting.many tests will come along

Or you will be testing yourself subconsciously because fasting can be, simply speaking - very uncomfortable.

During this test what I notice is this.

2 ways of behaviour or approaches that occurred to me. I'm sharing it like it would be confession, I can't be even more straightforward. This is what I have in my diary:

- you can break your fast because "external event".

Blame someone something... (it's because of XYZ)

- but if something good is happening: "use" it also as an excuse, use that external event to loose yourself... and then propably you'll be back to old self because you couldn't maintain good moment that occurred because of your elevated mood/spirit whatever you want to call it.

This is what had been happening to me.

Blaming had been showing me my trigger moments and using someone where I was afraid to go further...

Either way it's us.

This moment when you're actually happy, you're seeing everything can be better, you can have different, better life...and maintaining it, maintaining discipline - I'd say that's more difficult.

The old is known, the new, good one is unknown. And even if its good, people (me included) usually are afraid of it.

But again

And again

It's a journey:) 😁

So that's my note in fasting Diary.

Observe, take notes yourself and be strong.