I enjoyed waitressing actually before I lost my job because of coof restrictions. But for some reason people expect more from me. When talking about this lack of motivation with my hubby I said, "at the end of this I might just go back to waitressing and work my way up to managing the FoH." and he said, "You know you're made for more than that." That's probably my real problem, I've spent ages passionate about weird things and just going for it and people seem to think that means that I'm special, but I've looked inside and there's nothing.
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You're capable of more, but, I get it. So am I. I used to be so smart and was on track to do #bigthings. Then I got off track, made one really dumb decision and have been riding it the consequences of that ever since. (Joining the army was the worst thing I ever did to myself.) I can't really give you good advice. I can say that sometimes not knowing is a good thing.
I've been telling myself, "it's okay to not know" and telling well-meaning, curious people who ask what I can do at the end of my degree, "I'm not sure yet." But, provided I don't fail this semester, this time next year I'll be graduated, then what am I supposed to do?
Hmmm, somehow, I can't imagine joining the army would do good things for you. But I have no doubt recruiting campaigns make it sound amazing.