I forgot to mention that a few weeks after I bought the OSB I saw the prayers in the back and I said a few of them and then I learned the Jesus Prayer and one day I saw walking around my home saying the Jesus prayer and I begain weeping (I don't really cry I've been very stone like as far as emotions since I was like 15 or so) but I wasn't really sad I just felt over come with love (something I didn't know how to feel because I had numbed myself to it) that's what really started my journey I would say.