nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw I mislead you with poor sentence construction. I meant that Aella thinks that she is special because she is "nonchalant about death", that she sees no difference between being dead and being alive. As for how your two viewpoints differ, it's too obvious to comment on that much, but I want to say that another thing that struck me about her is how "flat" her worldview seemed. It was like seeing a greyed-out 2D image of buddhism. Makes sense from a neuro perspective, with fried dopamine receptors and all that
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 >description of experiencing the texture of the world as akin to a cracked desert.
The dangers of being attracted to experiencing novel stimuli above all else
I think death is special too, although presumably in a very different way from Aella
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The only thing worse than a nihilist is a nihilist who thinks they came up with nihilism.
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 :apuhammer: Thank you for clearing that up. That is really scary honestly, but it explains why she's so fascinated with torture. She's tortured her brain to the point that it isn't even tortured, merely stimuli floating in the abstract