I watched a talk from Cody Wilson the other day that has made me reorient spiritually a little bit. It's called "Death Athletic." It's a good articulation of the sentimental quandary we are in: the combination of "I know I'm fucked" but also "I can't give up because there is a higher purpo

se, and I will not be made miserable." He pulls some pretty good philosophical references throuhgout, and mentions Christ and Socrates as an example of inverting "this is being done to me" as "this is all according to plan." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LVi9m65lHGc