Hiiiii Nostr people! 🫂

I’ve been missing real communication because my daily life has been non-stop lately. I’ve been reflecting a lot and finally listening to my body and soul. I’ve been in turbo mode revisiting everything from the last ten years, when I was drinking alcohol every day and basically doing drugs too.

Today I accidentally scrolled my iCloud photos back to 2017, and I honestly looked drunk, swollen, completely drained. Mentally at a really low level.

Next year I’ll be 30! And wow… I’m genuinely excited for the new decade, it’s going to be amazing. Even though right now my anxiety has flared up (summer was so calm), I’m no longer afraid of the future, and I actually want to thrive in this life instead of wasting it.

How do you feel about birthdays and new decades? Do you agree that when we were young we were all wild and didn’t think about the future at all?

(And looking through those old photos from the last decade… it honestly hit me hard. They look awful. I feel this huge sense of shame when I see them now, because the difference between then and now is enormous. Back then my whole body was struggling, not just the skin or the occasional breakout I deal with today, but my organs, my mind, everything. One of the photos was taken in Los Angeles during a period when I was literally drinking every single day for months. No wonder I looked like that. I kept trying to hide it with makeup, but you can’t hide that kind of damage 😣 it shows on your face. And I was only 22 or 21 in that picture.. can you believe?)

#askNostr #soberity