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anyhow, just to give some more detail on what exactly i have dropped on my bro Jesus - it's my drinking problem...

after doing 350ml vodka and 2L orange juice and talking shit on cornychat and being quite ill (had also a bottle of wine in the afternoon) i'm like, i'm done with this shit, how do i let go of it

i pass it along to who offers to carry it for me

then i can let it go

i don't know why it works, it just does, you probably know of the AA 12 step and the thing about a higher power but i think fundamentally it is the case that the things that we do wrong to ourselves out of these habits are like demons that have become attached to us, and all we have to do is say "i don't want to carry this anymore" and then it's gone, after that, just to remember if it tries to slide back in, to send it back to who can hold it and actually have some freedom and life from this imprisonment

d23b7c1f... 1y ago

I did the same a year ago. I had to get to the point where I was like "I can't do this on my own. If you want to help me, God, I can't do it on my own."

it was only after that i could break the habit. Then i started to take God more seriously. I do agree it's like demons. At times i felt like i could almost see a black shadow sliding across a doorway.

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ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

yeah, i had a really vivid vision of my demon, even had a smell this thing, was like dark grey tar, stinky ugh, this happened just after i started to realise there was something in me that bad people were taking advantage of me with it, that was when i started to build defenses against it, but this one is different, because it's not something other people cause, it's something i do to myself

and yeah, they move like cockroaches and slivers of smoke, and just ugh so evil