as part of this exercise, i'm literally emptying my house of food

except for goat meat

if i get hungry, i can goat meat

alcohol is ok, coffee is ok, but no food, i need to empty this gut as much as possible

i'm not sure if many people have had the experience of their GI tract saying "no more" well that is me right now, two days of this pain and i'm very clear

i need no more

and i especially don't need mangled casein aka UHT milk, it's all gone, out, in the bag, out, and all the salad, all out, need to really put my foot down i said this yesterday but i was only one day in on the pain

two days in, ok, this needs a real fast, water, only water

yes, even the alcohol, dammit, gonna drain that out, and not go get a cafe tomorrow, or the next day, i need at least a fucking day

i'm all alone here, gotta do what i gotta do, this might seem like waste but it's waste if i didn't need it in the first place!