i might look at that... no way to get it and fuck amazon anyway, but the title gives away a lot.

i had already started to notice this as my situation turned to a state that is extremely tense about a month ago when i abruptly discovered that things i had assumed were coming weren't, and after trotting a full 30km round trip thinking i was about to become a homeless beggar again, and realising i had some options, and things weren't really that bad, i started to just act more mindfully, trying my best to aim towards something productive instead of letting myself get swept away by conditioned anxiety.

i probably need to make some kind of mnemonic and reinforce it pimsleur style, with slowly decreasing frequency until it becomes automatic.

thanks <3