I’m not really sad it’s more like bittersweet. I’m grateful I had him. I just realized looking at the pictures that I used to always fuck with him but he still loved me. Like I would pick him up and hug him way too tight. I was an asshole teenager. Other cats wouldn’t like it but he was calm and would just purr. I remember when I would give him showers, he never freaked out or scratched me as a kid. My dad told me it’s because he trusts me and I think that’s a beautiful thing. I appreciate having him in my life and I would never forget him❤️
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Been thinking about what you said 🫂
I kind of wanted to Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind him From my memories so i might stop feeling sad and guilty for not saying goodbye properly and not being there fully when he needed me most.
But I change my mind cos I’m grateful I had Ollie too ❤️🔥
I agree, it’s a beautiful thing 🫂 I believe Oliver trusted me too. I just so badly want him to know how much I love him and always will - but as long as I do I suppose it doesn’t matter if he knows or not now. I dunno, my heart feels wrecked.
Eternal sunshine was a good movie! I’m glad you changed your mind. I think gratitude is a great way to balance our sadness. If you could relive those years of your life, would you still want to meet Ollie? I think you still would and that answer alone means that it’s worth it. The experience and the memories🫂
I also would be surprised if he didn’t already know you loved him. But even if he didn’t know, you know that you do love him and you continue to honor him. I heard once that most people get more flowers on the day of their funeral than they do their entire life when they were alive. We’ve lost loved ones but we still have others we love and probably should spend more time telling them how much we love them❤️
That was a great film, been feeling like re-watching it.
I think you’re right 🫂 I definitely wouldn’t change a thing. He made my life richer. Nobody knew how to cuddle me like him. I wish I didn’t take him for granted, got so used to him being there I assumed he always would. All the memories and his love are definitely worth all the pain of losing him.
I love that, and completely agree. Losing Oliver has definitely made me think of this quite a bit. I don’t want to make the same mistake of taking anyone else for granted ever again 😭🙏🏽
Thank you MAHDOOD 🫂🫂🫂 I know it’s not the most fun thing to talk about on here, but I very much appreciate you taking the time with me ❤️🔥
You’re welcome🫂
Always nice talking to you🤍