Thanks for the sats and for saying so. Overthinking of future sometimes is a mess especially when I know I don't stand a good chance in doing something for myself. But I can agree with that, if one thing I'm a luck bastard to still be alive and health enough to experience some good times like the games I have.
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I just hope I don't mess or drain my luck at this point
The modern world sometimes makes us think we're not good enough, but that's just because we compare ourselves to others.
If you think you can't do something for yourself you're most likely wrong.
You're not going to be an Elon Musk, a Hayao Miyazaki, a Miya Kazuki or a Hideo Kojima. Reaching them is an impossible goal, but there's something you can do that they can't.
I likely don't know what that is, YOU may not know what that is yet either, but there's something that you can do that makes you Oshtor, in a way that none of the people I mention can!
I hope that's an undying truth for my sake, this pic kinda describe how is the place I live is and because of that we become kinda lazy and afraid.
But I won't give up, that I'm sure
You grew up in a poor place, sure, it has its disadvantages, a lot of them, but it also has advantages. You can probably live comfortably with 500 dollars, meaning that earning even "small" amounts of money by doing something can change your situation significantly. For me, 500 dollars covers food and basic household supplies ^^
That's not entirely wrong but crabs in a bucket is a way to describe a kind of enviroment where people will try to pull you down once you start ascending, just like crabs. That's the kind of place I live and it's impossible to not get affected by it.