nostr:nprofile1qqsdxpmyx4rhqdfhml00sywrm65k78u7snyzf83qqdf5ykfy4xgge7qpremhxue69uhkummnw3ez6un9d3shjtnyv4ex26mjdaehxtndv5q3vamnwvaz7tmjv4kxz7fwwd6x7mn9wghxxmmdqy0hwumn8ghj7mn0wd68ytn9d9h82mny0fmkzmn6d9njuumsv93k22py3t9 and other BJJ friends out there. What's your advice for staying consistant with training? Today was my 1st training in 4 weeks. My body felt much slower, clumsy, injured my finger during the warm up and I felt so stupid. Sometimes I just had this discouraging feeling of "Oh, I don't want to train today, it's raining, cold" or whatever execuse I could have.

I just moved to another country and the difficulty of starting a new life (finding a rent, loneliness, helplessness...) plus the pressure of Nostr development just hit me so hard that I became a little bit self isolated from social events.

I knew that I would felt much better during and after the training. But it was emotionally challenging to step into the gym. Is it just me or it happened to many people?

Deep inside I knew that I had no excuses and it's just because I was lazy or mentally weak. But this feeling of mental weakness also makes me feel guilty. Today I finally decided to train because I had some unpleasant arguments and my mood just dropped to an all-time low so that I had to change it.

Indeed I felt great after training and I had one of the best conversation with my training partner in weeks. I might be crazy but It felt like BJJ gym is my social support group.

I need to feel happy and look forward to training instead of seeing it as some sort of fiat mining task that I am supposed to do.

Will this feeling ever go away? Maybe it's just because I'm a white belt and things are tougher?