Then get her to stop making me panic about her safety and give me something else to do
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No. She wants nothing to do with you. You must seek help for the desire to track this woman down against her wishes. You need to be in a facility.
Seems like you're basically just having me repeat myself infinitely at this point
You are not well. You need to seek help. You are a stalker and you have an obsession with a person that does not wish to be in contact with you.