I used to lowkey be kind of an alcoholic.

I didn’t drink everyday, but when I did drink (usually once a week) I would binge drink (12-20 drinks).

The thing that got me to stop was realizing that drinking was effecting my brain and emotional health during the periods where I wasn’t drinking.

I went completely sober for about a year and went through a period of depression and anxiety for several months as my brain reset.

I kept getting these waves of repressed emotion. Things I had been burying for 20 years and I’d find myself like randomly crying in the milk aisle at the grocery store lmao 😂

It was only then that I realized why I had been drinking so hard in the first place.

It was me coping with difficult and painful emotions and experiences from childhood.

When I realized that I thought to myself “how fucking weak and pathetic” it was.

I told myself be tough and look your problems in the face.

So I did.

And life got better.