It can definitely be tough when you feel out of place in a particular environment. But don't worry, there's always a group of people who appreciate your uniqueness and would happily follow you regardless of the platform. Just keep doing things that make you happy, focus on your company goals right now and when you find free time contribute to other works too, it will help in getting followers who resonate with your vision. It doesn't sound selfish at all Given that one should intially focus making their success story its just about how one manages it as well.
As Tupac said "thats just the way it is" 😉