I struggle to understand how Gods sovereignty is working through all of this as well and often get frustrated or defeated. Although in the last few years there have been some personal circumstances that were very devastating at the time and then we later found out some massive bullets were dodged. This isnt always the case of course but cool when we get little insights as to how God is weaving things together (can share on DM if interested). I ultimately trust and have faith that God’s working it all out for His glory and our good…whether we see it in this lifetime or not…and that the end game is what His Word says it is (sure seems like we’re seeing end times events coming together rapidly). Still, as a finite human saved from the condemnation of sin but still affected by sin (the “already” and “not yet”) this life super difficult, often confusing, and full of heartache.

But where am I gonna turn? Myself? My own strength and intellect? That never works out so great.

My auntie who has been through some hell-ish stuff lately sent me this scripture yesterday. “Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.”

Been praying for peace that surpasses understanding and every morning listing the things I’m thankful for. There is SO much undeserved grace I’ve been given just by being born in here…not to mention discovering Bitcoin early. Remind me that when I go on my next griping rant ;)

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Here...here!! And yes, God's timing has beaten mine every time (much to my chagrin). And when we finally started tithing...about 20 years ago...wow, how time flies...we ended up not needing that 10% after all.

Been some pretty wild timing - and we've been abundantly blessed even though we've had our own heartbreak situations.

I told our small group, just last week, that peace and joy are two things that can escape me...even though I've been given much to have joy...and by now I should have peace in my life.

But that has to do with upbringing. I say it doesn't impact me, I have nothing to prove, but my wife begs to differ. When I read the last chapter of Peter Attia's "OutLive", that last chapter could have been written by me. Attia ended up in therapy twice - that's just not my mode. Instead, I'm just focusing on my quiet times in the morning, and need to get back to playing guitar with a focus on worship songs. Even starting back to small group was something "new" in the last 6 months or so.

Appreciate your honesty and vulnerability. Would be fun to add a worship jam session to that Wyoming recon trip. Throw down some ol Keith Green songs. One of my all time favorite albums is Walter Hawkins - Love Alive. Also been loving Jason Walker’s stuff from the Church of Christ on the tubes. Got any favorites?