Is it being good at something? Because that's how I feel sometimes. I just want to be good at the thing(s) I'm working at. I do a lot of volunteer work in my church-I want to "get good" at it. I'm working on refurbishing and building new custom themed bike-I want to "get good" at it.

I want to "get good" because I deeply respect others that are truly good at their trades. I long for that. I think those people become valuable to those that seek their "product."

But maybe you meant something totally different.