I appreciate the responses! You needn't worry about disturbing my faith, but I do appreciate some dialogue. It definitely seems to me that your understanding of the faith is incomplete, so I'll respond to your points and questions further and perhaps we can have further productive discussion, though I certainly don't claim to know all the answers.
1. Regarding women and men being equal, why is it that being clergy is the criterion for equality? That is a rather arbitrary measuring stick to choose.
2. Man is free today to choose God and reject Satan's influence, and if everyone did that, that would indeed bring about the Kingdom of Heaven on earth; I totally agree with that assessment. The thing is, even though we could choose God, we still don't, so here we are.
3. It doesn't follow logically that, just because God is omnipotent, He would have no reason to be saddened at the choices of the free beings He created. If He wants us to act freely, and we do stupid stuff despite all His help towards the good, well, just making us be good would override our freedom and kind of defeat the whole point. Evil exists because God respects our freedom (and that of the angels, too, they were created as free, rational beings).
4. As I said above, if God wills us to be free beings, then that means He allows us to choose evil, and, of course, evil will bring about suffering. God could eliminate suffering, but that would also eliminate freedom. We're all on Nostr, so I'd imagine we all agree that freedom is pretty high on the hierarchy of values. Is allowing freedom worth it if the possibility of evil is a consequence?
I guess a question is, if you were God, what would you do differently? You want human beings to be free, but they abuse that freedom by cutting themselves off from your friendship and doing all manner of unspeakable evil to each other. Sure, you can repair all that evil, but that undoes the whole work of creating free beings in your own image in the first place; coerced love is no love at all.
As I said before, the thing God does is He suffers with us. If you can't fix a problem, sometimes the next best thing is just solidarity. Maybe that's not satisfying to you right now, but I'd challenge you to come up with anything better.
I believe that God wills the salvation and eternal happiness of every person, but He's not going to force it on us. The thing is, though, if we reject God in favor of our own devices, we tend to drag ourselves down even to the point of creating Hell on earth, and human history is more than sufficient proof of that.
It seems that you're really mad at God, or at least of some caricature of God. You're approaching it as a skeptic, and I'm answering as best I can by trying to at least provide a more complete picture of what the Church really professes. I don't expect to change you're mind, but I do hope we can come away understanding each other's positions better, at least.