I have done many jobs in my life.
- Factory worker (expedition)
- grocery clerk
- grocery clerk at night
- Factory worker 10h shifts (machinery operator)
- Postal worker
I am not "lazy". I know how to work and I am a very good worker. But this work I'm doing here? It makes me feel like a very lazy person. It's difficult in a way I cannot explain. It requires something in me that's more... Real. I'm not an NPC doing a set of pre established tasks.
Do you mean, because you’re wearing all the hats and there’s so much to do? Or is it because you find it hard to maintain the motivation to do this work?
Wearing all the hats sure, but more than that it's the craft itself that can be mentally exhausting and I'm not sure why. It requires a lot of presence. A lot concentration and I always work with this small fear of doing a mistake and ruining everything. That alone has a small weight to it. Learning new things is also mentally taxing.
I feel like creation is mentally taxing in a unique way but I don't know if it's just me. But yeah doesn't help that I wear all the hats too.
