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im not an expert, i can only share anecdotally so all this is prefaced with 'to me':

when someone is altered, whether by drugs, delusions, depression, mania, can't co-create co-dream as equal participants in shared reality

it kinda has to be a babysitter thing. or shit can get dangerous for you, for them, both of you.

Like: yes we can talk in the pantry if you feel safer there cos of the CIA but no we cant walk down the highway so you can meet your handler under a bridge we could be hit by cars.

campusalot 2w ago

let's make and eat sandwiches and maybe the handler wants to meet in a park or something. im just not down with walking down the side of a highway.

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campusalot 2w ago

on another level,

"I didn't realize he had a strong compulsion to invite the illness in again to feel high, something he described vividly as an addiction to mania, not dissimilar to opiate addiction."

I think modernity is very spiritless and soul sucking. I don't really agree with equating addiction to mania as opiate addiction as in, the stigma usually slammed onto junkies

I can understand as caregivers, the selfishness and the cost:

like: 'wowww you just had to go do this shit to feel so creative again and make all this art or this album or this novel and who is doing the laundry? who is making sure you shower? can we schedule this next time? like you are responsible for six months and then ok a two weeks off meds creative bender vacation so i can plan around this?'

i get that

and it really sucks when the answer is no. no, my vision is more important than this family. no, i have to meet up with the cia. no, i cant schedule this. no, i can't give six months of service and drudgery.

campusalot 2w ago

many artists on the margins have a lot going on. whether that is in the hands of gods, spirits, muses, demons, their own spirit, their oversoul, their personal soul, the cost of this level of art making in general,

their sensitivity

senses they perceive differently

what they are carrying

their own waymaking

campusalot 2w ago

often: a mess

often: the worst

people come and arrive and are and shift all around spectrums, to me

to me: if someone is saying: dude, thank god for my medication

or: thank god after fifteen years i found the right medication

cool! cool. love that. all about it.

if someone says: i need this medication. i like it. i want to stay on it. but it does make me forgetful. can you help me?

you bet. every day i will help remind you to take your meds cos you asked me on your own steam.

compliance tho? the idea of remaining compliant when you hate this?

sorry im not down. i cant be part of that. i dont care if it is court ordered.