I haven't watched that video in at least 12 months so I'm watching it again too. Fudge explains everything better than I can but I'm surprised that I remember as much as I do.
It sounds to me like you need to pray for God's spirit to be with you when you read your Bible and when you watch Fudge. I can see your passion for Him and for introducing other people to Him. If I can see it then God can too, so He will definitely answer that prayer. Jesus died and as He rose the temple curtain split so everyone could see into the part where only the high priest could go and only once a year. The implication is that those who have repented and been baptised have direct access to God's presence. If you haven't been baptised do it soon in obedience to Jesus and the scriptures. Even if you haven't yet, God won't turn you away if you are earnestly seeking Him in scriptures. Jesus says that he who seeks will find because God is a good Father who faithfully gives good gifts. God bless you.