I ate so much I threw up a bit.. insane but seriously this is the way to grow. You have to increase your ability to eat over time.
Building muscle is insanely hard even if your genetics are good and even if you are on TRT
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This is moronic.
What's your daily meal intake look like? Are you refusing to supplement with protein powder and trying to get all protein from the meat only?
Idk understand your goal, but it doesn't seem to fit the low time preference healthy body, tbh.