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@IsabelSydow Queen of Shrimps (but u can call me Dan.)

In my line of work there is no way to give less than your all. It is the most complex job I've done. It requires way too much brain power, emotional intelligence, empathy, accuracy & effectiveness. Or someone may get denied their chemo, or their preventive screening, or pay up to the nose for their ambulance ride.

On top of that, it is as taxing as hell. It consumes my all.

I cry myself to sleep a lot of the time.

People are hurting & I am way too intuitive. I can see some people's futures and it is quite scary sometimes, especially when you can't tell them.

I do, however sympathize with what you're saying. I'm not getting paid much more than a fast food worker now. And I wish I could "slack" a bit.

All I can do is take medical time off when possible, because I have to be in top performing shape the moment my headset beeps.

corndalorian 1y ago

That pay is not worth your health. Find a new job.

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@IsabelSydow Queen of Shrimps (but u can call me Dan.) 1y ago

Believe me, not for lack of trying.

Unfortunately, even the fast food joints over here aren't hiring. Regardless of my college education, experience, gained skills... It is a dog eat dog world out here.

It is scary. I was so desperate one time, I even put an ad on craigslist for house cleaning. I'm not only good at it, but I am honest, you know?

Crickets.... CRICKETS!!!

Terrifying, really.

So What do I do in the meanwhile? Try my best to convince an 85 year old not to kill himself for 3 hours while assessing how emergency services could help him (if at all). And then, if I have any brain function after that?

I draw....

https://void.cat/d/5XtwchEw6UUAvp2Yqdea6c.webp

corndalorian 1y ago

I see, yea that sounds like it would take a toll over time. Glad you have an outlet with drawing but I imagine it can get pretty exhausting emotionally. Pardon my previous reply if it sounded abrupt.

@IsabelSydow Queen of Shrimps (but u can call me Dan.) 1y ago

Nope.

It sounded real.

I have a disability due to a brain injury. It basically it keeps me awake. 24/7. It feels like I'm being tortured. the second I start feeling like dozing off, a surge runs from the very center of my brain to my heart and I'm awaken in terror every 35 to 45 seconds.

This has rendered me unable to drive anymore. I used to ride a motorcycle. It now collects dust. I can't sell it because my husband had to engineer the clutch. I have an injury which makes using my left hand extremely painful. Not easy since I was left handed.

So pulling that damn clutch in was hard. He modified it and I was happy to have been able to ride... that lasted me a year as after that, the radiation they did for my thyroid truly broke me. I already was not sleeping, but I could manage. After that? the not sleeping just became misery.

So I am limited as to how far I can commute for a job, and small towns don't have much going on at all, let alone having any decent method of public transportation.

I still don't give up. My lifespan may not be very long, but I can guarantee you. I don't know how I am gonna do it, but when my number's up, Ima gonna go guns a blazin'!!!

Like Nina Van Horn and her "Death Kiss my Ass" dress !!!

https://void.cat/d/DACVMtoWGa4iqiciMpg7g1.webp