What if I walked away from this npub and just started a new one? I could probably figure out how to clone all the important stuff over.

I doubt my followers (both of you) would mind that much, and I'm no infloonzer, so my clone would likely just be me.

One feature of nostr that has bugged me for a while is the inability to delete notes. I'm used to deleting most of my history on other platforms, quite intentionally. Sure, a relay might eventually remove your note, but another may not - so you have no way to know if your history is out there still, or no.

I value being able to forget. Being able to re-create. I've had to be way more careful to stay mostly anon here than on normie social media. It feels limiting, rather than freeing.

I may be free of being cancelled or shadow banned, but I am very much not free of the real world consequences of anything I say, at any point in the future, whenever my past may be examined against criteria I wouldn't be able to even imagine in the present.

What if, in 5 years, my wife learns how to use nostr and looks back at this npub's history and decides it was somehow disrespectful to her?

What if it wasn't my wife, but my government? Or the government of the nation I am trying to enter? Or a police or legal action?

Winding myself up a bit. Not sure how this plays out. I'll put it like this - If this npub stops posting, it likely won't be because I am gone. I'll still be around, just respawned under a new clean npub.

My social graph doesn't feel that built up anyway. Does it serve me? Or do I serve it?