I can't attempt to keep up with all the new stuff here anymore. This liquid stuff was the piece of straw to much on the pile. It's all a mountain of information I'll never catch up on... Just becoming another stress and anxiety rat race for me. Something new happens 3 times a week here.

Time to stop and just accept that I'm going to miss out on most everything.

Its seeming like yall learn alot faster than I do

(I keep asking for explanations and how to's that a 5th grader would understand but it seems like no one has the time or is taking me seriously...) and I can't bring myself to sit and learn on my own after working and dealing with my family life.

How do yall have so much freetime to sit and learn all this stuff as nostr evolves?

Do yall just not relax, de-stress, or sleep?

Am I the only one dealing with a regular life working a 9-5, significant other, 2yr old, cats, parents, medical conditions and trying to remotely understand 3 new things a week on nostr?

Feels like I'm constantly being pulled in 15 directions...its to much for me.

Thus, as an introvert, I'm finding myself valuing my time alone, around no one, sitting doing nothing(maybe smoking a joint) more than doing anything else the last few months or so. Just in here and nests watching /listening once in a while throughout the day because i still feel like I don't actually fit in anywhere with anyone or grp

(as usual because i have zero social skills from being mildly autistic)

and that i don't provide any value here as anyone can create the content come up with(or actually implement) the ideas/solutions I do come up with.

What am I actually doing on nostr?

I really don't know.

How am I providing value?

No clue.

GNPV.

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