I feel like I got beat up...

I really felt like I could trust this nurse. The first time she really helped me to relax and feel at ease... And even though there were uneven looking zones while I was quite swolen it all felt like it calmed down within a couple of days. Though I sustained slight blue bruising under my eyes for a couple of weeks solid. But nothing close to this!!!

If you are wondering what I am talking about... I've been researching the most natural treatments for premature facial fat loss due to traumatic cosmetic rf injury. It's what I unfortunately experienced 2 years ago that has really felt traumatizing and a super grief infusing event. I feel that it caused me to go into hiding mode. It's caused me so much insecurity, grief and eaten at my self esteem, I feel like I lost myself, the one I knew in the mirror, like I disappeared.

And after a lot of research for solutions I felt like I could seek reprieve and support in stimulating my body's regeneration process to restore fat cells with PRF treatments. I was thinking injections, and would also like to try the vampire facial, (microneedling with prf). Hoping it would have some effectiveness. Though, once adipose tissue experiences necrosis there's really no coming back. I am just praying the stem cell niche is preserved and fibrosis hasn't replaced the fat pad entirely. I did stumble upon PRF Easy gel and seemed even more promising and I went with that. I found a "deal" if you could call it that.

It's seems to definitely not as promising as my ideal treatment but I thought a start in the healing direction. Budget was my biggest concern. I so badly want to reverse the impact and damage, I feel that it is possible, to regenerate and heal from the damage. And I am taking tiny steps. Starting with what was possible. My big hope is that this will stimulate adipogenesis.

So yesterday happened to be my second treatment in a month. We were able to get 7 grams (1 more gram than last time) of my own Platelet Rich Fibrin. Nothing but my own blood spun warmed and cooled and turned into a gel form reinjected into a few facial areas to slowly release growth factors over the next 7-10 days.

The nurse asked me if I bruised last time and I told her... So she said "I am gonna try really hard not to bruise you". Whatever dude. Yeah, fucking right! I am not sure why I'd numbed that side differently but apparently not as well as my right, so I definitely felt the freaking needle.

I am oscillating between hating on the nurse and holding myself back from putting her in a incompetence corner and trying to stay peaceful and loving to my body right now, being present with the regenerative process even as I look like I just got off a boxing ring. Fucking ay, man! 😂

And as we say in Bulgarian... Ама леле как искам да я псувам тая бееееее....

This is when smoking a giant fat nugget does help!!!

Here goes my networking in the bay area! 😅

Well, if anyone wants to come hang out with a lil old blue eyed lady 🥲 and bring me some chicken soup for the soul (just methaphorically, definitely don't bring me any food before discussing with me (I got a lot of intolerances and would likely decline even if it's delicious)), will take a plain old steak though any day (no black pepper only salt) medium rear to rear, we can barbecue it here 😁

Seriously though, hit me up. I am in Mill Valley til mid July.