I've seen how Buddhists live in service of others. They seem to have relinquished their role as creators & have resigned to a largely passive existence. It's a beautiful example of the other duality that our western culture promotes. As you hinted at, there's always the third option & I'm deeply grateful that they've managed to hold what is in my mind unscaleable & undesirable. There is so much to learn from the path they have chosen.

Thank you. There's much you have mentioned that requires further exploration on my part. I recently abandoned the search for more knowledge & focused purely on the heart side (the feeling, intuitive side). I'm now being shown partly through yourself, that I need to find balance in both. Heart-Brain coherence as Dr Dispenza says.