Let me preface this by saying I don’t feel as if I belong here - not a developer or programmer - and I don’t understand what you all are talking about most of the time 😂
But you sound disheartened. Don’t lose faith if this is something you believe in and enjoy!
Perhaps someday people like me will feel welcomed here. Until then, I just like to see you all getting excited about whatever this is and sharing hugs amongst yourselves.
Best of luck!