The best thing to re-invigorate my own patriotic fevor was living abroad. Maybe you could take a trip? Nothing like hearing other people complain about their corruption to make you realize oh we actually have systems to deal with this (it might not work well, but it's better than not dealing with it at all).

Think people are terrible and service sucks? Go order a meal at a restaurant in France and see how long it takes and how much they'll seem to hate you. Think our system is terrible? Go to Estonia or elsewhere in the Baltics where they suffered under communism for decades and they admired us for our systems (and our blue jeans!)

When I was living in Seattle it was very fashionable to hate America. I couldn't get on board. All those people were super privileged and mostly just whining about what they see on social media. They could have put in an ounce of effort and improved their lives and their communities but they didn't, because the point was the whining.

America is great not because of the potential or possibility, but because of the people who roll up their sleeves and do the work to make things better. Even when it's hard! To me, that spirit is what makes Nostr great too 💖

Sorry to write a textbook, and sorry you're having a bit of a time. Maybe see if you can take a vacation and it might help?