i've become a lot more stoic in the last part of the year, pivoted my attention towards things i have control over, while not having my feelings rely on the external.

it's an interesting take on the rush thing. sometimes that sudden panic brings out things that you didn't know you were capable of, but i think the rush you're talking here, is to just have low time preference, and act with that in mind

are there any interesting books that you've read that have made you come to that point regarding mindfulness?