For me it's like I forgot I took them until I'm close to weeping like "what is wrong? what terrible fate is looming that my body knows about that my mind cannot perceive?!"

And then through my existential howling I remember how many scoops of Cuban crack I had this morning... it was beautiful and the reason my home is clean and why I was singing and dancing most of the day. So idk. Caffeine is bad for me and also I will never quit it because I love it 😂