yeah, i deal with people, but mostly only from my tippie toes of my redwood roots, if you know what i mean... in 2021 i consciously kept myself from getting caught up in other people's stuff because of the way it had predominantly been an abusive situation that would pull me in

now, i don't have any friends, but i don't have any abusers either

i'd like to have some friends but i think the thing is i'm in the wrong place and i'm still not fully healed, and i won't be until i really finish my work and get my damn goat ranch... and then maybe i'll reach out to people again, i will have to, because they will share boundaries with me