one thing I realized is that I feel angry with the other person when I bother her 😬 I'm always trying to please everyone (I've changed a lot in this matter, but that's still here) and I'm usually successful, cause I'm always trying to pay a lot of attention to people, so my ego gets hurt when I can't - and it's worse when I do the opposite. if I wasn't trying to please the person, maybe I wouldn't do something that bothered her or if it did, I wouldn't be so disappointed when she was bothered. I guess that's an invite to be even more who I am. and that always starts with feeling what comes. but anger is something I hide a lot (and I realized that before I try to please people usually I felt angry but didn't let me feel.

maybe I'm saying obvious things, and I think there's something I'm not seeing, but I'll leave it here.