It is just hard.
I have seen a lot of horrifying shit in my life.
Remembering how my partner miscarriaged and then having to bury my unborn childs body with my bare hands, because the shovel wasnt working. Was not something i wanted to be reminded of when i first woke up, or ever again.
Some of the horrors I have seen and witnessed first hand already haunt the inside of my eyelids whenever I close them.
I just wish people had more understanding and empathy not to force traumatize people for life. Just to get their point across.