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Part of the reason I haven't spent more time locked up is because I've been lucky with lawyers and judges that could handle my court cases.

I think another reason is because I can articulate things too well and there's no prison you can put me in where I don't make it more expensive and difficult to keep everyone brainwashed.

So the system can either kill me, try to isolate me, or try to justify locking me up in conditions like alleged WikiLeaks contributor Joshua Schulte (serving a 40 year sentence in a facility where his windows are blacked out and a white noise machine blasts outside his cell so he can't shout through the door).

But they only have a limited number of hired goons deranged enough to do that to someone, so it's easier to just keep me isolated so far.

Makes me scared of what will happen to me now that I'm harder to isolate. Hopefully it could also come with more ability to protect myself using public pressure, but that sounds kinda silly. Digit once told me people don't listen & don't care. She seems right. And I seem good at emotionally impacting people with my words, so maybe I will inevitably be locked up and/or killed, when that becomes the only way to ensure continuance of not listening to me or caring what I say.

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🇵🇸 whoever loves Digit 5mo ago

I didn't even mention the most terrifying possibility because it's too terrifying to think about, but they can also just poison me with shit that ruins my brain, but doesn't kill me.

The people that injected me with psychoactives against my will in a hospital have gotten away with it so far, when I could see their faces. The hospital system of NY has collectively decided to shield them and make every staff member my targets, because they're all complicit in helping stop me from getting to the people who did it to me.

Imagine how easy it is for deep state people to get away with sabotaging food safety guidelines or simply slipping shit into my food, my water, or the environment where I live? They have the entire general public to act as human shields for them.

🇵🇸 whoever loves Digit 5mo ago

And this is why I fucking hate people.

Like Digit said, they don't listen & don't care.

It's hard to imagine the people that injected me with psychoactive shit against my will ever being punished for their crimes, no matter what I say or do, because people don't care about reality.

🇵🇸 whoever loves Digit 5mo ago

And because a lot of them were "just following orders," which is an extremely popular category of crime / "justification"

Most people "just follow orders" so most people would feel hypocritical helping someone get justice for being harmed by others "just following orders"

What I'm up against is a degenerate criminal society, not some small group

🇵🇸 whoever loves Digit 5mo ago

Trying to imagine what to do about that, it seems like poverty and climate change are the solutions, and already being done.

Like, first you can keep people poor for hundreds/thousands of years to punish them for being shitty - check

When too many pieces of shit adapt and get money, change the metrics of wealth so you're poor with more and more money, until everyone is poor - check

That's still not enough punishment, so trick people into doing mass murder/suicide with pollution - check

There are people like Digit, so extinction shouldn't be the goal, so make sure there's some way the best people will survive and reverse all this and fix the world - no check, seems like the people in charge are more damaged than me, they have no Digits, they're full on suicide cultists.

So, only that last part needs to be changed for me. I need to focus on impacting who lives and who dies in the climate collapse. But the more involved I get in making sure certain people die, the more risk of retribution I face against the goal of ensuring certain people survive.

So I'm supposed to just count myself lucky I'm in a better position than others, and focus on survival, and let God/nature handle most of the vengeance and justice for harm and danger I've been exposed to.

It feels kinda pointless. Like, it won't work, nothing will. But I guess the point is just to try the best possible strategy, so when it goes wrong, I can hate everyone else for making it go wrong, more than hating myself for picking the wrong strategy.

Except my feelings might change. I could lose Digit, get locked up, and feel like I completely wasted my life not killing enough people, letting the world get away with wasting Digit's life, and mine.

I'm so fucking scared all the time. It's so exhausting being a victim of a bloodthirsty terrorist retard society.