I saw through Joseph Smith. He has more in common with David Koresh than Jesus. The polygamy, violence, narcissism, all of the classic cult leader traits. I also felt like it suppressed my soul, made me small and powerless. The shame for not reading my scriptures or paying tithing or praying. The church’s mentality that if you don’t do this, you won’t get blessings. They are a religion without any spiritual soul evolution. They don’t understand Jesus. All the Mormons I grew up with are still in the Mormon church, their kids are spreading lies for the church on missions. They haven’t evolved spiritually or mentally. They are deeply unconscious. They have a church that claims it’s the plan of happiness however, they’re all unhappy, fat and powerless. It’s really sad. They all blindly worship Israel. I was skeptical and curious from an early age so I was never meant to stay. I finally couldn’t align with them because my soul was suffering, so I left. Truth seeking is a lonely place, but I’m more free than I’ve ever been.
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Oof... That doesn't sound like a good experience. Shame isn't the way. Neither is guilt. And blessings can't be controlled like that, so... Yeah. There's no qualifications for a blessing - they happen when you're in need, and secretly. I mean, real ones.
Its interesting that you held onto your spirituality. It seems like it's fairly common for people to react by going to the opposite extreme, but it doesn't seem like you did that. From your notes, I'd say you're quite tuned in with the invisible world.
It wasn’t as bad as it sounds. 😂 I was somewhere I didn’t belong and I wasn’t willing to pretend. I care too much about being real and freedom. I don’t believe most Mormons believe what they say they believe but they aren’t willing to blow up their comfortable lives. They haven’t realized happiness comes from going within and healing wounds, not projecting and expecting outside sources or things to bring them happiness. Most Mormons are good people. They’ve just been tricked into looking for happiness through religion instead of within, like most religious people. My search for truth led me to where I am now. Humans are meant to evolve.
Jeez, way to just casually say the whole meaning of, like, everything... "Happiness comes from going within and healing wounds, not projecting and expecting..." Yep. By some interpretations, that's what the cross symbolizes, or part of it. Well... Yeah, part.
I think most people are good. Certainly everyone is the hero in their own story. We recognize the bad in others as a mirror of the bad in ourselves, then react more to our own shadow than the other person.
Have you ever thought of returning to Mormonism, just better equipped with all the things you've learned? More in control, or something like that?