Someone recently mentioned how mom's change after becoming mom's, and I wasn't sure that would happen to me.

However, I didn't just give birth. I got something called ecclamcia, which means I had a seizur, and the day our son was born, I was in and out of consciousness.

Maybe some of what I'm currently experiencing has to do with becoming a mom, but honestly, I think most of it has to do with, first 4 days of never getting more than 1-2 hours of sleep in a row due to a full bladder that I thought was just a normal late pregnancy symptom, followed by the seizure that my amazing husband got first hand experience with. He waited like 40 minutes for someone to come but they hadn't made it yet so he took me himself.

I only remember flashes of being in the car with him in paved roads, which means I was fully out of it for at least halfway to town too!

I kept going in an out. I remember bein inside the hospital with a bunch of doctors and nurses around us. First one doctor said something about inducing labor, which I was on board with but wondered how I'd do since my left leg already seemed hard to move. Then they checked how dialated I was, which I unfortunately was there for, as it was the most excruciating pain I'd ever exerienced! I was 2 cm dialated. Then they went in there again that I again remember , but I'm not sure I knew why at the time. Apparently they broke my water at one point, might have been then.

However, awhile later they said the baby's heartrate wasn't good and needed to come out quick. Next thing I knew I was coming out of surgery, no longer pregnany. And when I say, next thing I knew, I mean I literally only have those few memories of what happened before that I already mentioned, the rest are gone.

I do remember at some point telling them that I didn't want any eyegoo and then my husband stepped in and added clarity as well as got them to not give him Hepatitis B, cause just no!