I think it is half and half for me. I am both living my best life, but I am not doing what I want with my time either. Grateful for what I have, but feel like I also have a big gaping hole in my heart and overall life satisfaction. Depression, pessimism, and faithlessness are my constant companions and I would like them all to fuck off forever. I am unsure of what major life changes are required, or how to accomplish them.