worrying about the mirror
the audience, the readership
unable to step out of the calculation
like a superego struggle
would this next tweet sound insane because i was just talking about this other thing
do i wait a couple hours
surely this is gonna come across as deranged if i dont wait
this is so low status of me
im making so much content im clearly coming across like a phone junkie
setting a poor example writing this much
what if this catches on and im normalizing phone addiction
yea i should totally wait
i have to show my readers i am disciplined and id never live my life on the computer
a couple hours? nah, twelve days i'll check in with myself maybe say a thing
that removed, unplugged, unhooked
do i come back with a shitpost or a sermonpost
aesthetics and timing are everything
i want to come across as deliberate
well considered
well constellated
trustworthy
nothing reactive here, no mess
comms pristine
dunks elite
we hired the best in town
it's about the poise in the face of adversity
invest here
whoever reacts first? loses
i made you lose your cool?
how uncivilized
dont you know this is the court of the sun king?
etiquette is everything
how to be just a person online in a digital space? not just a person, as whole as, as multifaceted as
sure isnt irl
yes compressed into a screen
yes compressed into words
and still,
as in, uninhibited
with abandon
unconcerned with viewership
for free, for nothing at all
knowing how easily words can be misinterpreted
knowing especially without cadence and tone and breath so much is always lost
the futility of it all
and to attempt anyway
to be a friend, to make one
out of sync, out of time
