I understand. Been there. I couldn’t even close my eyes to meditate years ago and was living breath to breath. I would read with headphones on and the headphones would play the sound of wind chimes and a stream of water. Anything to try to distract my mind from attacking me.

I would go to yoga and it would take every ounce of energy to stay in the class when I wanted to run out cause I couldn’t sit with my thoughts for another second.

I would take valerian root and Tylenol PM to knock me out.

It will pass. Find peace where you can. Pause and appreciate anything you can. We all can go through these things. Thinking about you. 🙏🧡

Not sure how much sunlight you’re getting but we’re all deficient this time of year. Maybe consider taking a vitamin D supplement as well as a full B complex. They are my go to when I start getting depressive.