2 weeks, no nicotine. It's happening. Much easier once I discovered (had never been told it like this before) that life as a smoker means living daily in a state of withdrawal. Even one cigarette means that I will instantly put myself into nicotine withdrawal for at least the next 3 days. Even one hit off a vape - anything that puts any nicotine back into my system, because as soon as it is there, the mind becomes aware about 10-15 minutes later that it is not there anymore, and the psychosis of withdrawal begins again. It is the very same psychosis of withdrawal that convinces us to have the first cigarette in the morning, and the next one after that, and will kick in minutes after finishing a cigarette or any other nicotine going in your body, every time. There isn't some critical mass of nicotine, or number of cigarettes that will be OK.

So now, NOT having another cigarette means NOT having to be in withdrawal. That's it. Living life in withdrawal sucks, no matter how great the nicotine itself may feel. Recognizing this has made a huge difference in managing cravings, being in situations where I would be triggered, etc. I've already stopped using bupropion; its job is done. That was really the only thing that I used as a crutch. No tapering down, just quit. had a relapse 25 hours in, went through about 1 1/2 packs, finished the pack I bought, quit again, haven't had any nicotine since 23:30 on July 15.

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Dope! One day at a time. You don’t need to manage next week, just manage tonight. The pain of continued sobriety is worth more than the extremely brief satisfaction from nicotine. Stay strong. If you fall, that’s ok. You probably haven’t gone two weeks total since you started, so you’re already doing better than all of the cumulative time you spent smoking is my guess. You won’t regret it dog. You will have hard times but I promise you august 1 2025 you are eternally grateful for decisions you made August 1 2024.

Some of this is true for me, other parts are not. I've smoked on and off since the summer of 1993. Mostly on, though. I quit a couple times for a few-year stretch, I think the longest I went as a non-smoker was maybe 6 years. Last year (2023) I quit for 7+ months. So I have plenty of experience at falling! I know it is okay, and I just have to pick myself up one more time than all the times I fall down.

The past and the future are not my problems; the only thing I ever need to concern myself with is the present, and my next action/response. Knowing that withdrawal is one certain outcome of a particular action makes it that much easier to take some other action.

I'm grateful for every decision I've made, and every action I've taken, even the most wrongheaded hurtful ones, because they all add up to a life lived, and it is a life I am proud of; wishing anything different would just be denying my own self-gratitude while not improving anything for me or anyone else.

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Hang in there. So glad to have kicked it over 35 years ago... Now just enjoy an occasional pipe with a glass of bourbon.