#GNpow

1/21

•Successfully fasted today! Not hungry. Today, I consumed 12oz of bone broth coffee (am), 1 gal H2O (all day), and 8oz plain spearmint tea (pm).

• Filed to register my LLC, got the domain (abliss.space 😍), did other random work stuff in no decent order. Made a TON of progress today!!! Will share when it's closer to done. It is cosmic precision poetry that my company is founded the same day Microsoft was, on 4/4, in the year I turn 44. 😁

• Emotionally: Working through the gangstalking still, and am struggling with cognitive deficits. It's so embarrassing. These people have violated me on so many levels, it is so dehumanizing. Topping it off, simple stuff just isn't simple, like following a to-do list or a step by step. Ran into a lot of frustration today.

• Failed trying to set up Mutiny, it didn't work for some reason. I sent the sats but it never arrived. Strike confirmed sats sent. Have to wait and see why? Have to figure it out.

• Successfully dehydrated beef and berries for trail packs. Gonna do some more tomorrow! Place smelled amazing all day! It's awesome to fast while dehydrating meal packs because no amount of temptation is gonna make me interrupt the dehydrator.. no chance for cheating 😆

Deficits suck. It makes me fail or slows me to a skreetching halt at times, like being stuck in a revolving door. I'm not stupid, just really retarded. It's lame. I can burn through a textbook in an hour but can't follow simple directions. Organizing stuff comes out discombobulated or backwards a lot. Like trying to file a patent without getting lost in the steps - or fucking up a simple template website because I can't code my own stuff anymore. Brain damage is torture when you're aware of it. Positive note: I am finding clever ways to get through stuff, simplifying and systemizing. It is what it is. 🐢💨 🤷🏻‍♀️

This isn't a bitching rant, it's a positive one, I promise! 😆😁

I've made a lot of progress on work stuff incrementally over the past few months. Little by little. It's a lot to look back and see progress and failure and all that is still ahead. Reminders that I'm lingering at the base of a massive climb feels terrifying and exciting.

Takeaways: What I'm doing is a work in progress, and so am I. It's a lot and it takes time. I appreciate people's patience, and get better practicing my own so much more every day.

Today was a good day.

😊🌻