really not sure what is happening on this platform at this point...

somehow, I've been involved in some weird phishing scam with my nsec? which keeps escalating. What I thought was a client app for gaming (when I first joined nostr) was not... and I pasted my nsec into that. It never occurred to me until 2 nights ago that I had, unknowingly, been phished. I cannot even tell what is and isn't being posted here because my computer is basically broken at this point and my feed barely works.

and, ultimately, the actions of me simply user testing a proof-of-concept, that I've replicated on various legacy socials previously, resulted in the safety of myself, my friends, and my family being severely compromised.

I joined nostr because the conversation happening in my country full of people that I love deeply, surrounding free speech, is getting scary. The US has, fundamentally, been built on the Constitution. I have always stood for the protection of all citizens of the world, but I am biased towards America because America is my home. That is what I care about. But, the America that I am in today is not one reflecting the values we were fundamentally built on.

I felt new platforms might provide new solutions...

Now, here I am, a week later with almost every platform I have under various methods of attack... including impersonations. The physical evidence of who I am in my real-world reality has become completely misaligned with an online identity that was mob-rule style created for... why? I don't even know.

Why someone would target a person just trying to help others navigate the online world makes no sense to me? Why innocent people continue to be silenced also makes no sense to me?

I am simply a mostly peaceful artist who is hoping for a semi better world- online and in my own country. I want that for all of you too.

Every device that I own is under attack. I lost electricity at one point. and I've been isolated from pretty much any form of secure communications. and, yeah... I genuinely feel afraid right now.

Never trust, always verify is making it impossible for me to know who is targeting me and who is understanding what was intended as a very peaceful message- about authenticity, about humanity, and about our right to protection of our property (without use of force).

I never intended to really do anything here except check out if this user-based algorithm provided a better space to for my friends to create content and get paid. I literally just wanted my friends to be able to use bitcoin on a platform that was relatively secure for them to do so.

I've talked about so many conflicting ideas on this platform... political discourse is how we remain in a semi state of extropy as we push against entropy and vice versa. Discourse, including political, must remain protected and nostr felt the most ideal place to make that happen.

Now, I'm just hopeless for the state of everything.