my death excites me.

not in a negative suicidal way, more like a puzzle that i know i am going to solve one day. like a secret that i will learn.

everything that i know will be consumed by the sun one day, or at least that what i heard. al the troubles and joys and struggles and achievements are so temporary, so transient.

is there a heaven/hell? is there a reincarnation? maybe just nothingness...

i've been to heaven, i've been to hell. some experiences love induced, some experiences drug induced. i don't need to pass away to know that those realm exist, here and now, for some people.

nothingness is also pretty much a scientific fact right now. the matter is made out of bunch of empty space and a few particles here and there, so who knows.

all i am saying is that death excites me, and i hope to go on that journey fully present and aware.

maybe see you on the other side

gn