She went from being openly violent to more reserved and calm on the outside
Holding all of her emotions back
On the surface
It's impressive
She just blocks out all of the noise
But she holds it all inside
She's got the rage in her
And when it comes out
Well I'm worried
In reality
She probably needs therapy
But I guess there's a hope that therapy can be avoided
I know her mom doesn't notice
I'm too close to it
And all that makes it harder
Her dad left immediately
She has abandonment issues
Her mom got with a POS and that's the only "dad" she knew for a while
Her "step dad"
He was on meth
He stole the mom's mother's Day gifts from her kids
They banned together to get her a gold necklace
He pawned it
He beat her
He beat her for me stopping by with my friends I was out with because they all happened to be male
The daughter saw all this
She saw her mom let it happen
I think it fucked her up
She saw my part
Which was... Aggressive...
The "step dad" is dead now
(Cause unknown - long dramatic story)
Before he died I cornered him and made him cry and shook him down taking everything in his pockets and called it a grief tax for being a POS and beating my friend and still trying to take advantage of her kindness and ignorance
And... The kids saw me as... Something... Idk... But something.
It's possible I fucked them kids up too
Idk
Terrible context
Josh was the POS and the excuse for a weird crusade
He got involved with bad people
He was tied up and beaten and "tortured"
And given a high dose of drugs after a few days of being deprived
And some people went nuts
The woman that pimped out her kids dropped them off at my friend's house and they made her daughter more....... Crazy... For lack of better phrasing.
Extra note:
Thoughts ---
Don't compare yourself to this mom
This is less than the bare minimum
When you feel like a bad mom
Don't say
At least I'm better than her
I took her kids in and tried to help them
Yupp you did
But ..... I don't wanna tell you what to do... But I know you can do better
