Feelings of isolation and loss of control that you cannot escape are the beginning of suicidal ideation.

As a young man when I could not take my parents constant attempts to control my interactions to only people they approved of, the guys who talked to me like that were actually there for me and helped me get out and build a new life. Turns out actions mean a lot more than words and a joke is just a joke.

It wasn't the best life, but it was better and happier than what I had under thumb with my every interaction controlled.

Could have been better if my parents hadn't done the exact wrong thing and tried to isolate me more. Then I could have stayed home instead of leaving as soon as it was legal and not talking to them for a decade.