Thank you! I really appreciate that and the feedback. I definitely try to be clear with what I say. I've worked on it and at it for a long time.
Once again I'll come back to awareness. If looking into other things such as diagnosis helps with the awareness, it can help with the clarity. Then you can work to process and heal those things.
The hard part is there is so much overlap of the symptoms that show up, which makes it hard to see what the underlying cause is.
For example: ADHD, codependency, CPTSD and other things all have symptoms that show up looking like red flags for narcissism from the outside. They come from other things though and are not actually narcissism, but they look like it sort of.
We can definitely get caught up in the research of all the different things, traumas, symptoms and healing modalities instead of doing the work to process and heal them.
There is no right path though. There is a path which may be more right for you though. No one can tell you what that path is though and it's another part of getting to know and trust yourself.
I had a lot of help through therapy and coaching, although coaching was what really moved the needle for me. I cannot imaging how long it would have taken me to do it on my own.
That said, it's completely possible to do it on your own and it sounds like you are building a good foundation for it.
Huge kudos to you and immense gratitude for seeing there are things you need to work through and doing the work. Breaking the chains of generational trauma is the hardest work we'll ever do, but it's the absolute most rewarding too.