i dont know who they is
but i know in grief a they exists
a someone at least a someone
maybe everyone who doesnt get it
who if they got it
wouldnt be like this in my proximity
Discussion
use your executive perks to rewrite time
do not touch me
& at the very same time, i think with this knife you can unzip a part of me, dont worry the hurt will be a welcome distraction, cos im pretty sure i need someone to manually pump my heart for now. do you cover executive function as well or just time travel?
what do you mean you have to touch me to manually pump my heart. no. dont touch me. yes your hand inside my chest cavity you need to do it.
all of this is too much to fall under the purview of grief
like there needs to be 47 words to even begin to touch the different kinds, how they change over the course of a day, intensify, recede, like tides
the grief of: the first time i almost forgot for a fraction of a second how unacceptable the missing shape of you that touches every part of me even is
the first time i got so habituated to this that this just feels normal right? ive never not felt this way im pretty sure?