It has been almost two months now since I falsely believed that I had lost control over my mind and body. That stoicism and my wisdom had begun to fail me. Leaving me desperately scrambling to discover something new that could help me regain control over myself. Today after lunch for no reason whatsoever I had become fierce and angry over nothing. There was no thoughts to fuel this negativity, but there was the feeling of unrelenting rage. Though as if I was riding an emotional roller coaster I could not get off of.

Then I remembered something. This is how I feel when I have soy!

I have been very careful for many years now to avoid that poison at all costs. So after going into the freezer and reading all of the ingredients to what I have been eating lately. It turns out that my woman had become lazy and stopped reading the ingredients lists.

My lunch had contained soy. My breakfast sourdough bread did too. Needless to say I had a very kind, but stern conversation with her about this. That she needs to always consider soy to be a food allergy of mine and to never buy any food, or drink that has it as an ingredient.

At least there is hope for me now! In a week, or two once this soyboy shit gets out of my system. I will once again be able to regain full control over my thoughts and emotions. No more feeling unconfident and that I had lost my self-control. My chosen philosophy and mental exercises never failed me, but my diet did. I discovered the true cause that is plaguing my life. I am on the road to recovery now.

#wisdom

#valueforvalue

#zap