I have been ridiculed and made fun of as a child by my friends, teachers, and family.

I have been hit by cars and had my head run over by a truck.

I have been 99% consumed by darkness, but my heart always ensured that I never did anything physically wrong to anyone.

I have been manipulated and controlled by my parents to the point where self confidence was non-existent and I was constantly drugged, because they didn't know how to handle me. Their careers and luxury lifestyle always took priority over me.

I have been the textbook definition of a vindictive asshole, because that is how I was raised. My heart made me change into a better person. For that is who I truly am inside.

I have been a thief and a compulsive liar, because that is how I was conditioned to think as a younger man.

I have saved more lives both physically and mentally than I will ever remember, because in my heart I have always been a hero who puts others above my own needs.

I have been an unwilling slave to those whom I have called my best friends, because of my desire to satisfy the textbook definition of friendship and loyalty. Until I realized what they were doing to me.

I live my life daily more often in excruciating pain in every sense of the word mentally, physically, and spiritually. Now that is beginning to change, because of my diet and life choices putting healthiness in every sense of the word above sensations in the moment.

There has never been a time in my life where I can say I knew who I actually was, because who I have been was manufactured and conditioned to be that way by society and those who love me.

I have been burned alive and had almost half my skin melted away.

I have tried to drown and kill myself as a child more times than I can remember from severe depression, but I will never discover all the hidden memories as to why.

I know that learning the truth takes time and concentrated effort. It is only now during the time of my revelations that I face the shadow perpetually haunting me within. Confronting all that I have been and done. To ask and give myself permission to finally be forgiven.

I will not allow words, or threats on a screen to ever stop me from sharing my inner light and wisdom. Hard earned through a tortuous wonderful legendary life. For I am here to save people and myself from the endless pain we may share together. We don't have to live this way forever.

These words I give to heal myself and free my soul from damnation.

May they inspire you to take this journey of self-healing too.

GN

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